It's been a long time since I updated this blog of mine. Last post was February of this year, Man that was like...10 months worth of my life undocumented? Wow, I really need to start writing back more often. I read a few articles that was worthy to be shared here on my blog, I got things on my mind that needs to be said on this journal. Man, talk about catching up...BIG TIME.
In the past ten months I got things going, after the incident on my February blog happened (me and Jessika breaking up), I got a lot of things happening, I got confirmed in my work (I'm a real workforce analyst now) and enjoying every bit of challenges that comes along with the job. Summer went by like a blur with a slur of activities from teambuildings, outings, road trips, and of course night outs. I had a good time, Davao was really becoming home to me again.
Jess called me up one day, sometime around March, with a bombshell. She was pregnant, she was. The bad thing about it was it was not me who did the deed but some other loser. I could not believe it. It was a shock before when Jess called me up saying that she was pregnant, we ended our relationship already and it seemed to me that it was unfair of her to tell me that sort of thing, but I just realized if she didn't told me what happened it would have been hard for me to accept her situation. But now I accept what happened and moved on.
Going back to what happened last March, things got pretty bit twisted. Jess and I broke up for our own reasons but seems that for what ever reasons we had before, we ended up being together again. Call it whatever you like but if you ask me, my love for Jessika never seemed to fade away. I got into relationships here after Jess and I broke up but she was always there, not physically but in my head. I always think of her everytime me and my girlfriend after her were on a date. I always think of her smile, how much she made me feel complete.
We started getting in touch again last September. I was surprised that she dropped a message on my facebook asking how I was doing. I texted her and everything felt right, given Jess' situation (she was pregnant then) everything felt alright. I did not passed on another chance and asked her if I can come back to her life again. Sure enough, she said yes. we talked about her situation and she asked me if I still love her even though she has a kid whom I am not the real father, I eagerly said yes, how can I resist, I still love her, I always do. I even asked her if I can be Franco's dad. I was really happy when she said yes to the idea. I now have 2 people whom I love the most, 2 people I can call a family.
I am now a dad, father, papa, old man, I am thinking of ways now on how to give the best things in life to my child. Franco may not be my own flesh and blood, but I'll give everything (110%) for him to experience a full life. I'll teach him things my dad taught me as a kid, I'll read a book for him before going to bed, teach him sports, and once he gets old enough maybe a drinking spree with his old man can be possible....hahahahaha. I am going to see my family this December and for the first time, hug my baby boy and my lovely wife.
This year has really a lot of going for me. I grew up both mentally and physically. As 2009 is coming to a close, I'll remember all the good time and sad times my life has undergone and will look forward to what 2010 has in store for me and my family. Until then I'm gonna live my life like there's no tomorrow...
